Friday, October 12, 2007

Brithday and Genting Thoughts

Yeah! My birthday is coming soon in less than a month. Lao Gong promised to buy a Crème de la Mer and The Refining Facial from La Mer for me as my birthday present. So happy!

Initially when I told him, he thought that it is just another mosituriser that costs less than $100. But when I showed him the price, he almost fainted but he still agreed to buy for me. He wants face so he bobian and has to buy for me since he has agreed.

I have been wanting this mosituriser for a long time but I can't bear to spend $350 plus on a small bottle of moisturiser. If I remember correctly, that will add up to around $500 for both products. I'm not greedy. Just the 30ml CDLM will do.

I felt sad as well. Sad in a way that I'm getting older. A day of 24 hours aren't enough for me as I still need to do lots of things. I want to learn violin and piano. I want to learn to sing better in one of the professional schools. I want to attend more courses especially advance japanese language to enrich myself. I want to go to France to learn the art of baking delicious and appealing cakes. But before going to France, I want more money. So many "I want"! Oh...I want 32 hours a day!

I will be going to Genting with my family and relatives from 27 to 29 Nov 2007. We have booked the whole coach and some of them even have to sit in another coach because there aren't enough seats for all of us. It has been such a long time since we travelled together. I'm looking forward to that day.

I went to Genting in 1990s, 2004 and 2006. Including this year, this is my fourth time. In 2004, I went to Genting with Lao Gong, Anthony, Derrick and his gf (forgotten her name) in early Nov. Five of us (2 couples and a guy who just broke up with his gf) squeezed in a room and poor Anthony even had to sleep on the table and floor. Luckily, Derrick and his gf left the next day and he could sleep on the bed. Anthony told us that he will win lots of money in the casino because "qin2 chang3 si1 yi4, du2 chang3 de2 yi4". In the end, both "si1 yi4". I won some money in 2004 but lost some money in 2006.

In 2006, I went together with my mum, sister, brother and Lao Gong in Dec.

I think I still have the girlish features because everytime I went into the casino, they would definitely check my passport without fail. They didn't even bother to check my sister's passport who is two years younger than I. Probably, she looks like her age or "chao lao"...wahaha. Let's see whether they will check my passport this year again.

I would like to go to the theme park again. But I will not dare to play Space Shot again. My heart cannot take the excitement anymore. Once in 2004 is enough for me. Lao gong even sat in Space Shot twice and Anthony sat three times within a day. I remembered my hands were holding onto the handle bar firmly even before it shot down and I sprained my shoulders. I would never ever sit in Space Shot again. But if someone gave me SIN$1000, that is a different matter.

Monday, October 01, 2007

Hellish Treatment

I don't deserve this type of treatment from hell!

I did not do anything wrong. What's wrong with sleeping at 7pm? I'm just too tired yesterday especially when I haven't been sleeping well for the past few months. Although I do sleep for 6 hours daily, I often wake up with fright. Do you ever understand all these?

You often said that you only sleep for 4 hours but at least for you, you have a soundly sleep. Try waking up everyday suddenly for 3-5 times.

You often said that I have no stress. Let me tell you this: I'm feeling stressed with you. I don't know when your temper will come and suddenly slap me, pulled my hair or even knock my head against the wall.

I admit I make you angry by shouting at you. But do you understand why I shouted? You never ever understand even when I told you. You pea brain will just forget everything that I have said.

I just felt tired so I tried catching a nap at 7pm yesterday. Why couldn't you just wake me up with your sweet voice just like those days in the past but had to shake me hard continuously? Don't act like your father who always shake you to wake you up! I shouted and things started to go wrong. You pulled my hair out of my bed and screamed at me whether I went out with any guys on Sat night leading to the tiredness in me which I didn't even step out of my house at all. Slapping came with twisting on my neck.

I have been waiting for so many years thinking that you will change to the better. Day by day, I waited in vain. I just feel like giving up this relationship.